Bleh.....Today sucks.

I am glum today. well, this afternoon I guess. The morning started so so, went for a walk, didnt see anything i could shoot, even though I stumbled onto a bull moose. Then got called into work. wee. then came home at 2 and watched a movie. This is what made me glum. I have realized that my life, as it is, is a rather sad non-event in the world around me, and that for some goddamn reason I hate and fear this feeling with a seething passion. I am truly scared to death of being forgotten and insignificant. Don't rightly know why this is such a bother to me, but it is. I look back on my life and see.......nothing. Nothing grand, I suppose. I haven't explored. I haven't camped. I haven't gone to concerts or anything like that. I haven't learned lots of things I want to know. It is depressing, which in turn makes me want to give up.

Fuckadee, Fuckadoo. Wee, angst.